The Teachings

To experience, requires form. 

As I ran through the PSI (perceptions, sensations, impulses), I shifted to ask “who/what is this that is witnessing the sensations, the perceptions, open to impulse?”

The I that is the essence witnesses the form’s experiences.

The detachment while celebration of the connection.  The essence delighting, relishing the experience of the form.  In whatever that is.  The simple full presence to the feel of the keyboard, the weight of the iPad on the legs.

The simple acts that become gratifying experiences.  When present to them.  Fully.

To simply drink a cup of tea.  To feel the heat in the mouth, the flavour.  The warmth as the liquid travels to the stomach. The breath that inhales the scent of bergamont, the warmth tickling the nose. 

The Japanese tea ceremony – now I fully get such a spectacular event.  The presence to every facet, the intensity of the experience.

The next generations’ priorities are to seek experiences, travel, new adventures.  Yet are more distracted than ever with devices, with communicating what it is they are doing.  Not being.  Not fully present.  Yet storing memories to fulfil the ever present dissatisfaction, the void.

Expectations and Hope

Judgement 

Without bias

Compassion for self first, and others

Michael gave me an insightful comment “when it is obviously demanding, say physical suffering, you find that easier to be spiritual, have trust and faith and joy.  It is when you are good, that’s the anathema to you as you can’t do“.  So in other words, the opposite to the majority of people.

When the cancer limits this body’s activities, Being is easier.  Joy comes easier. 

It brings a sense of closure and relief to this form’s existence.

I have no choice but to let go into the Now.

It is when the body is not evidently suffering, when it is a good day, then I crumble into feeling useless and valueless.  And oh, so very lost.  Separate.  

It is when I feel I am barred from making a difference – to Michael, to those around me, to the environment, the planet. To refine, to improve.  To save others, to create a nicer surround. 

Samaya: my sitting with the purposeless 

My embracing the simple Beingness of a form-nonsuffering day.

The love of (bird) flight: the unrestrained Beingness, lightness. No restrictions, no obligations or places to have to go, responsibilities and effort.

The “good” days offering up effortlessness. Physically and karmically.

And highlight the mind’s struggle-suffering to simply accept and imbue, without judgement.

As a baby we come into existence to experience form.

Hence the fascination a baby has with its toes, fingers, your face.  Touching everything to experience the different textures.

Smelling, eating whatever comes close to sample, experience without judgement.

Crawling, walking, exploring, feeling the movement.

Testing out the boundaries of the form we’ve chosen.

As in Illusions: either learning or fun.  

It is judgement/ego that distorts to good or bad.  Rather things the body likes.  And not.  But nothing inherently bad or good.  Just different versions of experiences.

Explore. Experiment. Experiencing.